So its day two and im going to share sth that like only two ppl know? Not gonna say th name but if you know me, you’ll knw who am talking about. Sad and one-sided love. It broke my heart. Day two of th 30 day challenge, Crush.

I met you in a camp not too long ago. You were shy and didn’t talk much, that was cute. First night of camp, when we got back our phones, you replied texts and called someone. I didn’t knw who but I knew I couldn’t have you. But I wanted to. We snuck out of school, one bunch of us, to get drinks and snack. We all talked on th way back. I like th feeling. Second day Sentosa, I saw th way you looked at me. On th last day of camp, three of us bused home together. You were sitting opposite me. After I alighted th bus, I receive my first text from you. Ecstatic I was.

We continued texting after that we talked about lots of stuff. I was enjoying every moment. Every text I receive. My heart-o-meter filled up. You made me many promises. Bringing me to club, getting me my first bottle of beer and drinking it with me? I hope you rmb. But I sure hope you meant what you promise. I’ll be waiting for th day you fulfill them and hopefully I’ll get a chance to blog about it.

During FOP, we texted although we were meters apart from each other. Talking about th weird dance we had to learn. Then came day one of school. We met in the morning with yr friend and mine. You ate prata and I drank milo. You guys then changed place to th smokers area. I was shocked. L and K came so I went to get them. While witing for them, I decided to go sch straight frm where we were standing so I got my friend to get my bag and we headed to school without waiting for you.

You knew what I was thinking. I tried to ignore. You lied to me. You texted to try to explain. I gave you one chance to explain, you did. You said that you wanted ppl to treat you differently but frm what I see now, you are acting exactly what you DIDN’T want ppl to see you as. I found out you had a girlf. I was devastated but continued doing what we were doing. I wanted to ask you about it but I felt like I cant. When you fell sick, we msned during class. I was having programming and you just woke up you said something and I was mad happy. You said and I quote, “will i be equilble to be your bf?” Boy, im still waiting for th day.

After you recovered you suddenly said “I want to concentrate on studies”. That was th last text I got frm you. Sad as I was, I emo-ed for weeks. F realize but after awhile he didn’t bothered to ask anymore. N was too far to know what was happening. Couldn’t tell L and K because they will think im stupid. For liking someone which may never liked me back.

You broke up with her but still didn’t talk to me. Soon, you had another girl. It broke my heart. I saw you a couple of times in school. I try not to look. It breaks me down each day I saw you. I want you. Did you know that for my 17th birthday wish, I wished for you? I really thought you were different. I don’t want to be wrong. Don’t prove me wrong.

But you never thought of me. Anyone but me. I know we will never be together. Because, in your eyes, im nobody. And your somebody, will always be another girl.

♥ 7:15 PM